dear oh dear

I think I might have worms. I seem to be permanently hungry. Now, this would not be strange, apart from I don't think that I am eating less, or taking more exercise. I walk to work everyday and back - that's about 3 or 4 miles total, but really, for the rest of my day I just sit on my bum and don't really get to wander at all. And yet, I am always starving.

I'm also about to inject myself with a series of toxins. I ordered my vaccines from my doctor today. I actually had to plead with the health centre, because I tried to do it before, and was redialling for about a half hour before I gave up, so when I got through today, I had actually missed the cut off time for ordering, but they said they would try and put it through already. And then I get to stick needles in me, or rather, pay someone else to stick needles in me. I've got to get so many.

I went to see my Grandpa yesterday; the first time since my granny died. I thought it was going to be sad and weird, but, stranger still, it wasn't at all. It makes me wonder if I'm just a really cold evil person. I can't be, but I still don't feel hideously sad about my Granny dying. I do remember feeling hideously sad the week before she died, whenever she was in tears when I went to see her. So I can't be completely evil. But still, its strange to feel nothing. I'll work on it.